So happy to be here and to have a wonderful prompt to write. Thank you Kate Graham. I’ve had the winter blues recently, and am hopeful that a little writing and a little bike riding each day will pull me out of it. But, don’t get me wrong, it’s kind of nice to have an excuse to curl up with a tall glass of wine and relax while its cold and rainy outside.
Lot’s of stuff coming up this year. Graduation: June. Wedding: August. Lots of endings that create big beginnings. I feel like am extensive chapter of my life is about to come to a close, but that closure opens up a whole new can of awesome worms. It’s exciting and terrifying.
Lately I’ve been thinking a lot about the future. I am unhappy at my job. Why am I unhappy? What job would I actually enjoy? Why don’t I feel motivated?
So this is what I know. I know that I love being with friends and family. I know that I physically miss my family back East while I cannot pull myself away from the West coast. I know I am inspired by my peers, itching to put that inspiration to work, and clueless and scared where to start. I know that I am frustrated by the system in which we live, where women’s health is a tool for political gain and I feel uncomfortable talking to my neighbor. I know I am more satisfied by hard work than laziness, even when laziness is so much more appealing than anything else. I know I want the world to be better. I know that it can be better.
As graduation approaches I am getting more and more questions of, “so, what do you want to do? I thought it would be more clear after BGI, but somehow it’s more cloudy. Maybe the more I study and learn, the more confused I become. Somehow the more skills and tools I acquire the more daunting the task before me appears.